Lately, I have been writing about great improvements and progress. It has felt good. But if I’m being honest, I have doubts that echo in my mind during harder times.
If I let myself go there, to the doubting place, I can quickly become consumed with worries. I’m glad that this let-my-mind-travel-to-the-dark-place happens less these days, but it still happens.
I think all parents do it.
Today, I let a casual comment fuel that doubting place and I let it take my afternoon away.
This comment, disguised as an innocent question, shouldn’t have evoked these feelings, but it did.
It made me wonder, if I’m doing enough?
Am I pushing enough?
Am I enough?
Today’s trip to the doubting place, reminded me that everyone hopes that they are doing right by their child. They hope that their parenting style and the choices they make benefit their child and help them succeed in the future.
We all hope that, but I don’t think many people feel 100% secure about all their decisions. I think if you say that you do, you’re lying.
I’m beginning to think it’s a numbers game like gambling or counting Weight Watcher’s points; you do what you think adds up to the best odds, gives you your best bang for your buck.
Only by talking about it out loud, was I able to return to my more positive thinking and eyes that focus on the gains instead of fixating on the struggles.
Obviously, I don’t know all the answers, but I suggest that you try to avoid the doubting place.