My latest post was about the energetic way my TBP wakes up on a Saturday morning and how that is very different from me.
He immediately wakes up with ideas, interests, questions, and is expecting the same from me at the same pace and enthusiasm.
I’m not saying that I don’t have ideas, interests and questions, Of Course I do. I just don’t start my morning with a lot of quick thinking. I need some time.
My son has always struggled to go to sleep at night and has woken up early because of all of his thoughts.
For the last year, this has been with good thoughts, good questions, good energy; however, it wasn’t that way before he was homeschooled.
From kindergarten to third grade, the thoughts, questions and energy that circled around bedtime and wake up time were engulfed by his stress, anxiety, boredom, hatred, dread, and hopelessness of school. From school. For school. Because of school.
For years, those nights and those mornings were challenging. Actually, challenging is an extreme understatement. They were torture.
From Friday afternoon to Saturday night, we had relief and he experienced necessary respite. The grief about school started back up on Sundays.
In the beginning, Sunday nights were tough but soon the worry drizzled down into Sunday afternoon and then, even into the morning hours.
Thinking back, I believe that Friday Family Movie Nights started as a way to celebrate getting through one more school week. A way to forget the tears, tantrums, and nasty emails. Vintage TV trays and French fries helped…temporarily.
All of this changed once we took him out of his third grade classroom. There were a few weeks of recovery but then the self-doubt subsided and slowly it was replaced with confidence and worth.
After a while, smiles and laughter returned and made frequent appearances, stuck around overtime.
I know there are people who doubt and question our choice to home school; however, unless you have lived through the days and nights that we did, you can’t know.
I’ll take hyper, joker, inquisitive and thinker at bedtime or early in the morning ANY time!