Last Friday, my family drove into the city and stayed at a beautiful hotel. We were seeking a way to erase the stress that my family has marinated in for months. Friday was great. The happiness was a wonderful distraction and it helped…temporarily.
Saturday, was a different story. As the angry outburst transformed into quiet pleas of despair, I felt helpless. I understood the seriousness.
I wished that it was just one episode of self-doubt. It isn’t.
I wished it was a once-in-a-blue-moon bad day. It isn’t.
I wished all the worry and stress hadn’t crept into our weekends, but it has.
The school staff has proven to be too busy, too clueless, too detached to come to the table with solutions. At this point, emails aren’t even returned; maybe this is due to their fear that their ignorance could later be used against them. I am saddened that I share the same profession as them.
These nights, we fall into our chairs after he is asleep and consult our calendars. We plan for early pick ups in avoidance for the most stressful parts; attempting to create a safety net of support for my TBP. I have to admit that there have been days where I have been engulfed in fear…until now.
Yesterday, a friend walked in the snow to her church and lit a candle for my son. The religious ones in the family are praying and I called on my beloved relatives who have passed to send me strength and protect my son.
When I woke in the middle of the night, I was reminded of the words of a brilliant man. He said we should picture what we want for my TBP, expect a good outcome. See good things. At that moment, I was reminded that we have experienced challenging times before and absolute miracles came our way. So, why not now? Why not him?
After all that positive energy and prayer took place yesterday, we experienced a small miracle. Our little school district was closed today due to “possible worsening weather.” No one else was impacted and neighboring schools were all open and on regular schedules.
It was an extra stay at home day. A deep sigh of relief. We crossed one more day off the calendar until our mid-winter vacation next week.
Today, I was reminded of the importance of positive thoughts and intentions. I don’t know if you believe it or not, but we will gladly accept blessings sent our way! 🙂